The Hopeless Writer

I don’t want to write a poem about how beautiful the star is… Because there’s so many of it. I don’t want to write a poem about how lovely tonight is… Because you might have heard of them before. I don’t want to write a poem about how bright the moon is… Because the moon is always bright and beautiful as usual. I don’t want to write a poem about how wonderful today is Because everyday is so wonderful having you. I also don’t want to write a poem about how much I love you… Because I’ve always told you every single day and night. Just in case you might forget, I love you… Yosita Anita V.

I’m just a normal simple but stubborn girl. I'm a big girl in this little tiny world. I don’t like to be taught or even to be told… I like to do things on my own… But I don’t really like, sometimes, to be alone. I’m a little bit of complicated and uncontrollable. I’m a little bit of disorder and can’t be expectable. I could be so nice as much as I could be so naughty. I could be tough but not be so bitchy. I'm fierce and fabulous but please don't be jealous. I'm shy, I'm friendly but I don't bite unless you deserve it. I'm silly and, yes, with some little wit. I'm cool, I'm calm with some sparkling charm. I'm hype, I'm hot but I won't do you any harm. I’m honestly, trustworthy, loyalty but, hey, I’m not a saint. I lie, I loathe, I envy and so on but who doesn’t. This is just something about me and who I am. If you don’t like what you read, who gives a damn… Yosita Anita V.

I am an isolated artist… I’ve reached for the sun, the moon and stars above. I’m seeking for unconditional and forever love. I am an isolated artist… My spirit and my soul are crying out of boredom. I am so weak and so tired of lonesome. I am an isolated artist… I close myself and I close my heart, So that you won’t see that it’s been torn apart. I am an isolated artist… And if one day we have a chance to meet, Don’t bother of my silence greet. Because this isolated artist, Would prefer to be just only a mist. And this isolated artist, Would be nobody whom you gonna miss. So goodbye my readers, let me rest in peace… Yosita Anita V.

Welcome to my world, my dear… What do you expect to find here? Mystery, Love, Answers, Passion, Sympathy? My life is a mystery as you can see. My love has no limits and is without condition. Answers are just only confusion. Passion is who I am and will always be. In my world, there’s no room for sympathy. Welcome to my world, my dear… Now what can you offer me here? Your life belongs to someone else? I shall deny. Your love belonged to someone else, I shall cry. And why would I want your body without a heart? Why would I want you if I could only have a part? Now let me see, what else can you offer me? Yosita Anita V.

I've been up and down around my bed. Try to clear things out of my head. But every time I closed my eyes, All I can see was your smiles. Counting day when will you be back home. I don't like being on my own. The feeling of emptiness... The feeling of loneliness... I don't really like to be alone. I can't wait for you to come back home. I really miss you, honey... Yosita Anita V.

การเดินทางของหัวใจในวันหนึ่ง มันพาฉันไปในที่ซึ่งไม่อาจคาดหมาย มันพาฉันไปหา “ฉัน”อีกคนที่เดียวดาย เป็นชิ้นส่วนที่ขาดหายที่รอวันได้มาพบเจอกัน เราเติมเต็มช่วงเวลานั้นทั้งความสุข ทั้งความทุกข์ความเศร้าและความฝัน ชิ้นส่วนต่างๆ เริ่มประกอบเป็นความผูกพัน ฉันคนนี้ และ “ฉัน”คนนั้น รวมเป็นฉันคนเดียว การเดินทางของหัวใจในวันนั้น มันเกินความคาดฝันที่ได้ตั้งใจไว้ มันทำให้ได้รู้จักกับความสุขใจ ให้ได้รู้ว่ายังมี “ฉัน” อีกคน มาวันนี้มีเพียงแค่คำว่า “เรา” กับคำว่า “เหงา” เมื่อต้องจากกันอีกหน และคำว่า “รอ” ที่จะเจอที่ต้องอดทน ที่เราต้องผ่านพ้นมันไปด้วยกัน การเดินทางของหัวใจในวันนี้ มันยังมีเรื่องค้างคาให้ใจเศร้า เพราะเรื่องราวที่เกิดระหว่างเรา เรื่องวันเหงาๆ ของคนสองคน ถ้าจะย้อนเวลากลับไปได้อีกสักครั้ง อยากรู้ว่าเธอจะเปลี่ยนแปลงมันไหม แต่ไม่ว่าวันหน้าเราจะเป็นเช่นไร ฉันก็จะขอเก็บเธอไว้ในใจเช่นเดิม. The story of my heart…I remembered It took me to an unexpected fascinating journey It took me to another lonely dearly “me” Like a missing piece which I’ve been waiting for so long. We fulfilled each other wit...

I woke up this morning in my empty bed and empty arms. Then I thought of your smile, your laugh and your charm. How nice it would be to have you here once more, How nice it is just to think of you, mon amour. Just to hear your soft loving voice, I wish. Just to kiss your sweet tender lips, I wish. Just to have a scent of your body, I wish. Just to have you… I wish. Yosita Ania V.

Love is a freedom. Love is not being selfish. Love is not possession. Love is sharing & caring. Love is giving & taking. Love is to have & to hold. Love is forgiving. Love is understanding. Love is happiness & sadness. Love is hearing & talking. Love is difference & fulfilling. Love is a disease. Love is a cure. Love is an adventure. Love is the world. Yosita Anita V.

There was the time that we were so happy together, There was the time that we didn't have to think about the world, There was the time that I didn't know the truth, There was the time that I completely trusted you, There was the time that you promised to be with me forever, There was the time that I said I would never leave you ever, Then there was the time that you left me behind, Then there was the time that I cried, Then there was the time that you said you were sorry, Then there was the time that you said you still love me really, But now it is the time that I choose to be free, And now it is the time to say that I love...Me. Yosita Anita V.

Sing me a lullaby so that I would dream away. Sing me a lullaby and wake me up when there is the 1st of May. When there is love and promise you have made. When there is a wonderful hope and a beautiful faith. Sing me a lullaby... Sing me a lullaby so that my pain would go away. Sing me a lullaby until the next 1st of May. When all my tears is gone with the promise you made. When my heart stop burning with an ugly anger and a disgusting hatred. Sing me a lullaby... Yosita Anita V.