The Hopeless Writer

The sun came kissing my bare skin this morning. A pretty girl's lying peacefully in my bed. Birds were happily singing outside my windows. A scent of Lavender still lingers in the room. Oh, my pretty lady... I was fascinated by her natural beauty. Sunlight's shining on her perfect figure. As I drew a line down her flawless silky skin, I felt a tingling on the tip of my fingers. I love kissing her luscious lips. As much as I love the curve of her sexy hip. But every time I kissed her solf sweet petals, I thought of you. Every time I hold her in my arms, I thought of you. The spicy scent of her perfume just only reminded me of yours. The touch of her couldn't compare to yours. The way you passionately heated me up... The way you moved through my entire body. The way you lead me through the whole night. And the way you made me reach new unknown hights... Oh, my beautiful lover... It's such a painful pleasure, just to think of you. Longing for your touch... Endless hunger f...

The place is so empty... I still remember when there was you and me... I still recall how it used to be... When there was a sound of giggling and laughing... When the room was filled with love... When there was pictures of you and me hung on the wall... When there was our footprints on the floor... The place is so empty now... It's like there's something missing, some how... Though the scent of you still hang in the air... Your jackets still hang on a chair... I can feel you here and there... The shadow of you is everywhere... Every corner I can hear your voice... Every mirror I see your smile... But the place is really empty now... There's something different. There's something changed. The place seems to be soul-less. The feeling of emptiness. The touch of loneliness. And the steam of sadness. I wish you back to life again, the empty place. I wish you back to your grace. I wish you the best... The empty soul, the empty place... Yosita Anita V.

Dear Loneliness… I shall not be afraid of you anymore. I shall embrace you like a wonderful lover. I shall welcome you like you are my only true friend. I shall greet you like you are my family. Oh my dear Loneliness, we've known each other for too long. We've spent time together too often. And you know me too well. I do miss you sometime but I know you always come back. You never leave me alone like they do. You always know how to comfort me, like cooking me a delicious tears soup. Bathing me with a warm tears and the scent of grief. Sing me a miserable lullaby. And cuddle me with your humble solitude. Oh my dear loneliness, if you've ever left. How can I possibly live without you. Oh my dear loneliness, if you've ever left. My life will be completely different without you. It's such a quiet and peaceful night and it's time to go to bed again. Loneliness, can you tuck me in and sing me your lullaby? Can you stay with me and hold me ...

I know our love was gone wrong. And I’m singing you this sad song…to show you how silly we were. To tell you what we lost. You’re always in your own depressive world and left me on my own You left me confused with the truth feeling you’ve never shown. We said that we would always talk but still we had something to hide. Our love was so fragile and we were acting like a child. You were the reason of all those thousand tears that I cried. You were the reason that I changed and you still don’t understand why. I know our love was gone wrong. And I’m singing you this sad song…to show you how silly we were. To tell you what we lost. A thousand promises that you never kept. A thousand memories I tearfully left…behind. It’s too late to change what you should have done before. It’s too late to ask for one more chance…no more. How many times that I waited and wasted? How many tears that I shed? How many years that I had to live in your shadow? How many years that I lived witho...

Now I understand... a different taste of tears. Once I used to cry because I was so desperate to understand what was going on. Once I used to cry blaming everyone but myself. Once I used to cry because I was ignored by the person I loved. Once I used to cry because I lost my trust in the person I loved. Once I used to cry because I was left by the person I loved. Once I used to cry because I left the person I used to love. Now... I cry because it's all myself to blame. Now I cry because I realize that all those mistake I made, was such an act of a fool. Now I cry because of those little things you didn't say which led us to the end, today. Now I cry wishing and hoping if there's another way. Now I cry wishing and hoping for another chance to prove how much I love you. Now I cry because you completely change and no more love for me. Now I cry....desperately. Yosita Anita V.

It's been a year since my life completely turned around. It's been such an amazing year, I could ever wish for. You're always by my side, every times that I've felt so down. You are my very best wishes and I will never ask for more. Oh my love, thank you for coming into my life. Oh my dear, thank you for sharing your love. Oh my darling, you have no idea how much you mean to me. Oh my honey, what have I done to deserve such a wonderful person as thee. It's been a year but my love for you is still growing strong. It's been such an incredible year and I finally found where I belong. I know I have nothing to fear when you are with me. I also know that I can always trust thee. Oh my love, if I have never met you... Oh my dear, you are like a dream comes true. Oh my darling, I am all yours...come what may. Oh my honey, I love you...always. Yosita Anita V.

Thinking of you for every single step I walked on the beach. Thinking of you every times when I heard your favorite beat. Thinking of you for every sips of cocktail I had. Thinking of you when I felt so sad. Thinking of you when nice sea breeze blows. Thinking of you when I felt the hour passed by so slow. Thinking of you when I dipped myself into clear blue sea. Thinking of you every times I had a cup of jasmine tea. Thinking of you when I saw lovers walked hand in hand. Thinking of you when I saw footprints in sand. I can find a million ways to say how much I miss you. But it can’t compare to the feeling how much I really do. I miss you… Yosita Anita V.