The Hopeless Writer

In your warmed embrace… In your caring arms, I feel peace. I can feel your chest rises up and down, and your heartbeat. When you gently kiss my forehead, and when you softly whisper in my ear. I know it right then that I have nothing to fear. In your warmed embrace… In your caring arms, I feel love. I wish for none as only you is enough. You complete my hollow world and fulfill my thirsty heart. I know it right away from the day we first start. In your warmed embrace… In your caring arms, I finally find the place where I belong to. There’s no other words to explain and no other definition but… “I love you”…” Oh my dear, my heart and my soul. My mind and my heart are finally in peace since I’m with you. Yosita Anita V.

At the moment, I decide… I’m your and you are mine. Nothing else I would want more… Than wake up with you every morning. Go to bed with you every night. Laugh with you in time of happiness. Cry with you in time of sadness. Walk hand in hand. Roll down in the sand. Be crazy together. Watch movie together. Travel the world together. Grow old together. And do so many other things together. At the moment, I decide… That I love you, and only you. I don’t want anybody else, it’s true. I’m completely madly deeply in love with you. Nobody is matter any more, that’s true. I know that I can count on you. You know that I will always be there for you. Distance cannot change my heart. Even if we are a thousand miles apart. At this moment, I decide… To tell you that... "I love you"...truly from my humble heart. Yosita Anita V.

I’m sorry for being moody. I’m sorry for acting silly. I’m sorry for the jealousy. I’m sorry for being stubborn. I’m sorry for being annoying. I’m sorry for being ignoring. I’m sorry for bothering. I’m sorry for snoring. I’m sorry for being naughty. I’m sorry for being fussy. But one thing I won’t be sorry for…still… I’m sorry for loving you too much… Yosita Anita V.

For all those tears that I cried. For the life I sacrificed. For all those broken promises. For the unbearable heartache. For a thousand nights of loneliness. For a thousand days of argument. For all those disrespect and contempt. For all those lovely presents. For all those lonely New Year's eve. For all those lonely Birthday. For all those lonely Valentine's. For all those lonely Anniversary. For all the jealousy and stupidity. For all the mistrust and misunderstanding. For all the love and hatred... I forgive you. Yosita Anita V.

I hate the way you look at me so passionately Because I feel like I’m melting just by looking into your eyes. I hate the way you cuddle me because I miss it so badly when you’re not there by my side. I hate the way you kiss me because it’s hardly to stop kissing you, your sweet softly lips. I hate the way you touch me and the way you glide through my skin with your finger tips. I hate the way you talk, the way you laugh and the way you smile Just because I can’t stop looking at you...oh you’re so charming. I hate when you act like you don’t care but I can see you’re curious and annoying. I hate that we like the same things because I have to share I hate the scent of your after-shaved and the way you do your hair. I hate that I can’t stop thinking about you even if how hard I try to. But what I hate the most is that you make me fall in love with you... Yosita Anita V.

I am poetry. I am a lover. I am mystery. I am a traveler. I am prophecy. I am a dreamer. I am an innocent child. I am a happy bride. I am a boy with the biggest dream. I am a man with the biggest scheme. I can flow as a rapid steam. I can blow as a crazy storm. I can be tough, I can be strong. I can be weak, I can be wrong. I cry a thousand tears. I conquer without fear. I am a freedom. I am a fighter. I am wisdoms I am wiser. I am adult. I am old. I am what so-called ‘Life’ Yosita Anita V.

There comes another sunrise… Shining through my empty life… While my soul is dying And my heart is weeping… I don’t know where I belong… I don’t know where I will be… Day seems so long… Night seems so lonely… I’m crying out for freedom. My heart’s longing for love. Somewhere I can rest? Someone I can love? When day turns into a desert of thirsty heart. When night turns into an ocean of sorrow tears. I shall escape…. I shall fly away… Oh sweet serene liberty… Where shall I find thee? Oh sweet serene liberty… Someday I’ll fly free… Yosita Anita V.

It’s raining outside… I’m looking out of my bedroom’s window… I see just only miserable and sorrow. Why the sky is crying? Is it the same reason I am crying? My heart is burning and screaming… Tears keep running and falling… My body is shaking and trembling… I’m totally entirely lost without you. I’m dearly completely missing you. My dearest sky, could you please just don’t yet stop the rain? I just want to wash away my tears and my pain. And when there is sunshine… I hope I know how to smile again. Yosita Anita V.

I’m sitting here in my bed. Tears keep running down on my face. If it’s just because of me or this song is so sad? If it’s because of me or it’s because I miss you so bad? I still have no idea… I’m alone again here in my empty bed. Trying to find what’s left of your scent, your after shave. I’m so desperate… I’m so hopeless… I’m missing you like crazy. I’m missing you so much, honey. Every single sad song seems to connect to me. Without you my empty bed is the terrible place to be. I can’t stop crying now… I don’t really know how… If you’d be so kind… If you really care… Could you please tell me why? Or if I’m just having a nightmare? Those songs seem to fill my lonely night. Tears seem to be my only friend. I still can’t stop crying now. And I don’t really care to know how… Yosita Anita V.

Have you ever awakened at night and wonder why you couldn’t sleep? Have you ever dreamed of someone so often that you didn’t know what it means? Have you ever thought of someone all day and wonder how they are? Have you ever thought of someone when you see something that it might suit them? Have you ever bought something just because you think that they would like it? Have you ever thought of someone when you hear a love song? Have you ever smile during the day thinking it would be nice if they were there with you? Have you ever miss the scent of them And thinking how nice it would be just to have they close to you Or even hold them in your arms right then? Have you ever had a skipping heart beat every time you hear their voice? Have you ever constantly checked the clock And counted every minute and second to see them again? Is that what we call “love”? I guess it is… Is that what we call “care”? It probably is… It happens all the time but we never notice. It happens all the time but w...

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“Friend” is such a wonderful and beautiful word… “Friend” is those people who don’t care where you are from or where you have been…. “Friend” is those people who are so kind to you when some are so mean. “Friend” is those people who just really care who you are not who you are trying to be or who you pretend to be… “Friend” is those people who you could share story and really care about “us” not only about “me”… “Friend” is those people who could remind you and reflect you. “Friend” is those people who support you and be there for you. “Friend” is those people who don’t want anything back from you. “Friend” is those people who always wish a good thing for you. “Friend” is another word which makes your life meaningful. And “Friends” are those people I am thankful. I am so lucky to know you guys and I appreciate your love and care… I am so happy right now and it’s the feeling I would love to share. Yosita Anita V.

I’m sitting here and waiting for your call. The call that I know it would never ring. Like all promise you said but never done. So why am I still sitting here? Because I love you or… Because I just want to remind myself how silly I am. That I still wait for you… No matter how long and no matter how good you are to me. I still wait for you… Like I’m waiting for your love word that never came. That is how silly I am… Yosita Anita V.

I don’t know what happen inside of me. I feel strange, I feel whole then I feel empty. I feel alive, I feel weak then I feel miserable. I feel love, I feel sorrow then I feel understandable. I smile and then I cry when I’m happy. I think of you, imagine you when I’m lonely It might be because of you… Who came into my life and shook my world. Who inspire me, define me, desire me or even tired of me. You make me feel alive and you teach me how to love. It’s all because of you, don’t you see? It’s all because of you so why don’t you believe me? What else can I say? What else can I do? That it’s all because of you… Yosita Anita V.